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Hi all,
Again I m here with the thoughts I have, which I usually don’t able to express correctly, but I’ll try this time to make you all a little comfortable this time…..

I usually think that, Is the atmosphere I get and the life style I m into is sufficient to live,
Isn’t I always compromise with the things around me,
Isn’t I m less demanding then what actually I should to be,
Isn’t I m doing all what is around me and nothing for which I meant,
Isn’t I m to lazy to what I can do more early,
Isn’t I m less capable instead of actually what I can do.

These all things come into my mind when I think about the people around me,
or when people say me like this that “why you are trying to be as such as you are not suppose to be?”, then a simple question come to my mind, Is they speaking the truth, Is I really behaved in such a manner that made them to speak such words, Is I really try to create a dummy image of myself instead of my transparent nature as usually I have. Do I really need myself to correct this? Or its only their supposition or experience they had, on the basis of which the made such a statement.

I correlated too things there to justify my point the question I plant earlier and then the supposition I made, but again the story stands where from I started it. Well the only thing that I think is the best answer to my questions is this that “one is responsible for all the happening which happens with oneself”, and also there is nothing to blame somebody else and nothing matters as whether you did the same for the good of others or for your own purpose.

So all sort of questions are not for you actually, it was all an illusion, I made them all to make myself learn that what I m missing, I only responsible for the same and nobody else :),

And I hope you all not mind for the same. Thanks for your precious time. :)

Initiation and implmentation.....

People often ask me that I m crazy about all type of outing, visiting here n there, taking hasty decision n all this kind of stuff, I think it’s only me who can explain this. Why I only? Why I wrote as I m the only person who can explain this.

If any of you can explain then don’t read below, as you know everything, but still I say that you don’t know the Exact.

Couple of times in my life, I compromised with what I demanded, Everyone may did the same couple of times, but its fact that I did all compromises all the time, all the time means whenever required, whenever somebody said me that, “sorry its not for you”, I left the same, reason, I was not an independent that time, as being elder in my family I always thought in a bigger sense(how bigger I don’t know), I always understood what my parent’s eyes says, what actually they want to make us in the scarcity of resources, which I think every elder son of a middle order family think, that always restrict me to do what I wanted. Very simple example for you all, How many of you had a bicycle in childhood? I think most of you say that ya I had, It doesn’t mean that I don’t had, but that was my fathers not mine which he used to go to work, n I learnt riding the same after one and a half year.

Well you might be thinking that how m I linking the craziness of this time to this childhood’s compromise? Let me explain.

This time the stage of life is something different to what it was when I was a child, now the options are different, the life’s needs are different, everything is different, but I don’t know where from a childish behavior comes which anyway want me to do the something which take me into a heaven of thoughts and I do what so ever come into my mind, and most of the times, something like a little unexplainable, interesting, exiting, n anyway all about the thoughts, time, and the situation, which never meet at one place.

So friends, Chill, all the time, at every place, in every situation.